Well.

I haven't really done much lately to lose weight, but the extra time has left me a moment to enter to win diaper contests like the one to win a Fuzzibunz Cloth Diaper, a cute BuBuBiBi Diaper, an Apple Cheeks Prize Pack, and a crazy versatile Hiney Liney. yep.

The End..The Beginning...

So as most of you know, I decided to quit the diet along with Mike. I don't know if I put it in my last post, but my weight loss that last day was .6 lbs, putting me at 176.6, a total of 4.4 lbs lost. Not too bad for 3 days of "hard work". I was really worried that when I stopped I was going to gain it back, but I decided that if I did, it would be ok, because it will come off when I start my new exercise regimen. Well, here we are two days later and at weigh in this morning, I was relieved to see that I have maintained my weight. I didn't go crazy when I went off the diet, I just basically doubled my protein intake and ate just as many veggies and few carbs that the hcg diet calls for. Last night I even added olive oil into my diet and had a handful of granola mix. I have a new outlook on life and my health and have never been so excited to eat healthy. However, we are only two days in to this new resolution, so we'll see how it goes. I plan to keep you all updated on my progress and what I'm doing and using to get back down to my ideal weight, and I'll be posting my weekly weigh in as well. Oh, and one more thing, I HAVE to do this, not only for my health, but also for the fact that mike promised me a new wardrobe if i get down to my goal weight, which is 145. Can I do it??

Giving up. sort of. maybe...not.

Mike's decided to stop the diet. He didn't really need to lose much weight anyway, and he could easily lose it with the insanity work outs he does along with a lower calorie diet. And me? well, I'm having a hard time deciding whether to go on. I would like to because I'm seeing results, but I keep having a feeling that this isn't the best way to lose weight. Best, meaning healthiest. Sort of a "duh" moment, but I've been desperate...haven't I? Well, in retrospect, no..I haven't been that desperate. I've been eating like crazy, eating the wrong stuff, even though I'd like to think that I make mostly good choices. But I really haven't. This diet, and cooking every meal for the past 4 days has really made me realize what I've been putting into my body. I eat way too many carbs and sugars, and I think that's mostly what's been hindering my weight loss. I think the answer to my problems has been the HCG diet in the sense that it's really opened my eyes. For now, I'm eating my VLC lunch and we'll see what the night brings. I'm so scared of gaining all the weight back, but it really isn't that much, and I'm about where I was 8 days into the 30 day shred when I was eating like crap. and that wasn't half as hard as this stupid diet. stupid, stupid diet. I'm not even craving a hamburger or anything like that...I want more veggies and chicken! It's a matter of quantity. So where in all this babble does my decision lie? I don't know. Can I handle the 6 weeks of torture that would take me a year on a safer plan? that's the big question, I guess. I'm not so obese that I can't live with myself, but I'm far from being happy with myself. Sigh. I think I could ramble all day. I think I've made my decision though.......
by the way, weight loss this morning was .6 of a lb. not the 2 I've been used to, and probably not helping. It's a lot, but not enough in my eyes. I lost 10 lbs in a month and a half on my own diet, and to lose 15 in 23 days wouldn't be good enough for what I have to go through. boo.

Day 5

So, as I said in my last post, I weighed in this morning to find that I've lost 2 lbs!! I was ecstatic! I'm at a total of 3.8 lbs in 4 days, and I love it. What I don't love is starving/craving to death. I'm not much more hungry than I normally get before a meal, but I am craving anything and everything. I kid you not, I gave mikey's bottle a double glance today. But when all is said and done, I think I hate my weight more than I hate this diet. I still half expect that I'll quit before I'm supposed to, but the hunger gets better as every day passes and we've added tea with stevia into our diet which has helped A LOT. Also, we're supplementing with whole food vitamins and l-glutamine, which is a natural suppressant which feeds your brain sugar-like vibes, so when your brain would normally make you feel hungry for having a lower blood sugar, this counteracts that. Or something. Anyway, it worked for a while, but I had to have tea and my 2nd fruit a little early. But now I can honestly say that I feel completely fine, aside from mild fatigue, but I'm usually tired so I don't really know how much i can blame on the diet. In case you're wondering, I'm using the HCG drops from superchargedhcg.com, sold by the pharmacy in A Fresh Markets. It only cost $30 and I think a 2 oz vile will last the whole 23 days. It's homeopathic HCG, which is hugely controversial, even more so than the shots, because a lot of people claim that it's just water with nothing in it. I've researched so much on it and you have experts on both sides giving their opinion, so I've decided to just block it all out and continue. The Supercharged company is local, their PO Box is in Pleasant Grove, so I could always stalk them out if I pass out or something. haha. just kidding....but really. Anyway, I feel good about it, I'm losing a great amount of weight, and I haven't passed out yet, so on to another day. I must be crazy.
Weight: 177.2
Daily Difference: -2 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 3.8 lbs
Feelings: I can do it?

Day 4

!!! I didn't write a post last night, so I'll just sum it up: hungry, like the day before, but more manageable...and why, you ask?? Because I lost 5 lbs in one day. Yes, you read it right, FIVE POUNDS! Now, I did gain on my loading days, so from the beginning, my total loss was just short of 2 lbs, but with 2 of my 3 days consisting of stuffing my face, I'll take the 2 lbs, thankyouverymuch. I was feeling quite despondent again this morning because I kept gaining all day yesterday, then I weighed in...another 2 lbs gone. Vanished, poof, GONE. For everyone who thinks this diet is the easy way out, you're effin crazy. This is the hardest thing I've done to get my weight down. Harder than Jillian's 30 day shred. BUT this is the most effective program I've ever been on, and it's all in my hands. There's nothing I would like more than a cafe rio pork salad (thanks megs) but with the results coming so fast, there's no way I'm going to cheat. I have 19 days left of the drops, followed by 2 days without the drops, but continuing with the very low calorie diet (VLCD) then 3 weeks of stabilization, where you're instructed not to lose or gain 2 lbs, after which you are free to eat what you like, carefully introducing carbs, starches, and sugars (which I will probably only have sparingly)...and just continue with Lifetime Maintenance. After the 3 Week Stabilization Phase I'll probably go back to my Couch to 5K running program. There's probably no way I'll lose as much as I want to in just 23 days, so I'll definitely have to do a lot to get down to my goal weight. and the point of most diets is that they give you a head start..the rest is up to you. Of course, with any diet, if you go back to eating double doubles every other day, you're going to gain it all back. The main reason I chose the HCG however is the claim that it resets your hypothalamus, meaning your metabolism is faster when all is said and done and one cheeseburger won't cause you to gain weight like crazy. I know that my metabolism is basically at a snail pace, especially after having the baby because Mike didn't gain anything on his load days and I gained 3 lbs. I'm excited to keep going and can't wait to show you guys before and after pics! I'll be taking pictures at the end of each week, but you're going to have to wait till the end to see them!
small edit:
Weigh In (day4): 179.2
Daily Difference: -5 lbs
Overall Weight Loss: 1.8 lbs
General Feeling: This sucks. Still.

Day 3 (Day 1 of VLCD)

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AM weigh in: 184.2 (+/-0)
Thoughts of the day: please refer to the above post.

Mini Day 3 Post

For the first time in weeks, I'm hungry for breakfast. I'm trying to tell myself it's all in my head, but I think measuring out lunch didn't help. 3.5 oz of meat= 2 chicken tenders. oy.